joy

fascinated how quickly you lose ability to experience pure, ultimate and overwhelming joy.
why?
you can't replace it with desire drive and pleasure.
it's not the same. 
with desire comes 'more'.
with pleasure 'not enough'.
joy is like happiness. 
that is why you have less and less of it.
but you don't have to.
don't calculate it
you can not organize it
scheduling, 
exercising, 
daily routine joy... no way
remember?
it wasn't that long ago when you were laughing
jumping
no reason needed
why?
why not!
it's much healthier.
i'm worried about you